I dont wanna live but i dont wanna die

Theodora Blanchfield is an Associate Marriage and Family Therapist and mental health writer using her experiences to help others. She holds a master's degree in clinical psychology from Antioch University and is a board member of Still I Run, a non-profit for runners raising mental health awareness.

Home Mental Health Information. Does this thought feel familiar? If so, you are not alone. Many people who struggle with their mental health have experienced similar thoughts and feelings. Not everyone who thinks about dying wants to die. It is important to recognize the difference between passive and active suicidal thoughts or ideation. Passive suicidal thoughts are thoughts you have about dying without actually having a plan.

I dont wanna live but i dont wanna die

Content created for the Bezzy community and sponsored by our partners. Learn More. Medically Reviewed by:. I typed this into Google a year ago, my hands shaking as I questioned what I meant. I felt selfish as I typed it, thinking about all of the people who had been suicidal, worrying that I was being disrespectful to those who had actually lost their lives that way. I also wondered whether I was just being dramatic. But I pressed enter anyway, desperate to find an answer to what I was feeling. To my surprise, I was met with search after search of the exact same question. There were so many other people feeling the exact same way. If you or someone you know is considering suicide, help is out there. Reach out to the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing The Lifeline is a national network of local crisis centers that provides free, confidential support for people in distress, crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals in the United States. If someone is at immediate risk of self-harm, call or your local emergency number and stay with them until help arrives.

I hope you can remember a time when life was good, when you were happy. And they might as well all be correct. The answer is NO.

Username or email. Keep me signed in until I sign out. Suicide is the leading cause of external death in Spain and the leading cause of death in young people. The hotline will involve the participation of experts to intervene in complex high-risk situations. In a first phase, the telephone will be managed by the Red Cross , while the Health Ministry finalises the tender for the service. To ensure that all citizens can use in conditions of equality and non-discrimination, the ministry said that the line is adapted and will include a video-interpretation service in sign language, as well as a telephone interpretation service that offers a solution to overcome language barriers by allowing communication in real time with people who speak another language.

Trigger warning: This post contains a frank discussion of suicide pertaining to feeling semi-suicidal. September is Suicide Awareness Month, and in honor of that, I want to share my experience with feeling semi-suicidal. My hope is that other people who have occupied this awful in-between space will understand that what they're going through is very real, and someone else has been there too. Over the last six years, I've been semi-suicidal many times. Semi-suicidal is a state of being where you may experience suicidal thoughts or feelings , but don't necessarily want to die.

I dont wanna live but i dont wanna die

Theodora Blanchfield is an Associate Marriage and Family Therapist and mental health writer using her experiences to help others. She holds a master's degree in clinical psychology from Antioch University and is a board member of Still I Run, a non-profit for runners raising mental health awareness. Monica Johnson is a clinical psychologist and owner of Kind Mind Psychology, a private practice in NYC specializing in evidence-based approaches to treating a wide range of mental health issues e. Information presented in this article may be triggering to some people. If you are having suicidal thoughts, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at for support and assistance from a trained counselor. If you or a loved one are in immediate danger, call For more mental health resources, see our National Helpline Database. Major life stressors, childhood trauma , or untreated depression are all reasons that someone might feel this way.

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Not being able to enjoy myself, even though I now live quite an ok life. To fix this, many of us will self-medicate, which rarely actually fixes the problem. Paul Ferro. I never talked to anyone about my issues and tried to act as happy as I could but on the inside, I was never happy besides when I smoked weed or drank. It was a huge turning point, going from feeling everything at once to feeling nothing at all. But I did start to make changes. I know that better than most. In the novel, the main character completes suicide to escape the pressures and expectations she felt. Utilized social support and self-esteem mediate the relationship between perceived social support and suicide ideation. I guess I am the rare North American Bitch, impervious to happiness and medication. Estimating the rates of deaths by suicide among adults who attempt suicide in the United States. I thought I was the only one who got physically sick from depression. Use profiles to select personalised content. At the end of my rope, I turned to Google.

If you experience suicidal thoughts, the following post could be potentially triggering. That is the classic thought of someone living with passive suicidal ideation. Once, I was very stressed and depressed while coming home from a business conference.

Things had been going downhill for a long time. However, passive suicidal ideation can quickly turn active i. Reply to Tired Guy. I could tell you about the 5 miracles that Jesus, stepped in and saved me from being instantly killed, or worse. But knowing that I got through this truly difficult time in my life gives me the motivation to get through any other bad moments again. Since the day my brother died, I was angry at God way back then, than I am now. Previous What negative thought are you struggling with? Mostly because if there is a creator of this, my experience, go fuck yourself. Username or email. I feel empty. I knew how I was going to do it, when I was going to do it, and where I was going to do it. You may accept or manage your choices by clicking below, including your right to object where legitimate interest is used, or at any time in the privacy policy page. She holds a master's degree in clinical psychology from Antioch University and is a board member of Still I Run, a non-profit for runners raising mental health awareness. One more thing depression makes me sick psychically sick, like stomach or headache do other people feel psychically sick or is it just me? Reasons for living and hope as the protective factors against suicidality in Chinese patients with depression: a cross sectional study.